Sunday, December 09, 2018

The Mediator/King is Our Creator

Another nuance to the incarnation story for our advent season: our Mediator/King is the Creator.
In the New Testament book of Hebrews the author takes time to compare Jesus Christ with other biblical mediators including angels, Moses and Aaron. At the close of the first chapter, as he writes about the Son and the angels, he quotes from the Old Testament (the Hebrew scripture) in verses 7-14 (CSB):

And about the angels he says:
He makes his angels winds,[j]
and his servants[k] a fiery flame,
but to[l] the Son:
Your throne, O God,
is forever and ever,
and the scepter of your kingdom
is a scepter of justice.
You have loved righteousness
and hated lawlessness;
this is why God, your God,
has anointed you
with the oil of joy
beyond your companions.[m][n]
10 And:
In the beginning, Lord,
you established the earth,
and the heavens are the works of your hands;
11 they will perish, but you remain.
They will all wear out like clothing;
12 you will roll them up like a cloak,[o]
and they will be changed like clothing.
But you are the same,
and your years will never end.[p]
13 Now to which of the angels has he ever said:
Sit at my right hand
until I make your enemies your footstool?[q]
14 Are they not all ministering spirits sent out to serve those who are going to inherit salvation?

Here we learn that angels are God’s ministers to help us. Quotes in this section are from Psalm 45 and Psalm 102, written centuries before the Birth and both considered to be messianic by the Jews. And we learn that the Messiah was identified as Creator long before Christian authors had the chance to teach us this. The Babe worshipped as King in the manger is the Intelligent Designer as well.

Thursday, December 06, 2018

Collecchio Italy 1945

Four days before the Axis surrendered in Italy in 1945, the Força Expedicionária Brasileira (Brazilian Expeditionary Division) made a push for the Allies in the Taro river area near Collecchio.

A swirling breeze lifted scattered leaves into a shrinking spiral against a cloud bedecked blue sky that spoke of ascending hope. Sargento Zenóbio da Silva, 6th Regimental Combat Team, 1st Division closed his eyes against the momentary grit, opened again to the ocular lens, resumed his breathing, tightened his tension on the trigger and waited.

Hidden in a young orchard to the west, scanning through his binoculars Oberleutnant Frederich Schmidt, 242nd Sturmgeschütz Battalion, 90th Panzergrenadier Division saw a flicker of breeze-born leaves rise above the stone wall lining the street exiting the town. The gaps in the stones would make excellent sniper hides.

Stabsgefreiter Oskar Hinkel, knelt at the Fiume Taro’s edge, filled their canteens and returned, distracted by the glory of the mid-day sun, walking upright through the trees.

“Get down, Hinkel, get down! The sun is bright and betrays us,” hissed the Oberleutnant. Hinkel instantly dropped, scattering the canteens as he hit the grassy earth.

Studying the orchard eight hundred yards across the river, Sgt Zenóbio thought he saw movement in the trees while their branches briefly bobbed up and down as if waving to him. There! A semicircle by a tree trunk betrayed a partial silhouette of an enemy’s helmet. His rifle cracked like a splitting rock and the telltale spray glinting in the sun confirmed another casualty. Oddly, though, it had no color as if the light stole it away.

Schmidt called in the coordinates at that edge of the town. Da Silva quickly withdrew under cover knowing artillery would soon obliterate his position.  StGefr Hinkel picked up the canteens and crawled back.

When he reached their position Hinkel held up the canteens and over the roar of exploding artillery exclaimed, “Heir Oberleutnant! He’s killed your canteen!”

Saturday, July 07, 2018

Onto The Frozen Lake

Onto The Frozen Lake

Eight years old I’m ever ready for adventure
Dad takes the fam out onto a frozen lake
Not just any lake, Lake of the Woods, Oregon
One of God’s jewels of nature, a sapphire
Mounted in the malachite forest
And azurite of a cloudless sky

In the deep dark days of chicken-feather snow
The lake didn’t just freeze but hibernated
Under a layer of downy flakes of such
Even depth, it looked one of Gram’s quilts
Stippled with the stitches of tiny feet
Wondering about in search of food

Now winter has been taking a break and
The sun bares its chest to dip into icy waters
A day or two before out in the middle of the lake
It melted a pool to swim in and the sleepy
Kokanee wondered why snow mosquitos never
Landed on the still surface of the dense water

Then last night ice trolls from the north pole
Descended on the lake for a long drink of Cascade
Waters leaving as mysteriously as they came
The lake pool was now a looking glass of the
Purest emerald green ice with a flawless
Reflection of all the surrounding ridges and pines

Eight years old with hockey skates laced up tight
Gliding by the awkward strokes of a novice
Yes it feels like flying while Mom watches from
Her folding chair ready with hot chocolate
And my older sister carves her own patterns
Dad is wary but sees no cracks, smiles all around 

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Bruise the Head

 When Satan tempted Jesus in the wilderness he appealed to His humanity with the bread, to His faith at the temple and to His pride at the mountain. In the back and forth of temptation and rebuttal, Jesus always refers to scripture. Satan does so only once after taking Jesus to the top of the Temple, urging Him to cast himself down and quoting Psalm 91: 11-12 he says, “For He will give His angels charge concerning you, to guard you in all your ways. They will bear you up in their hands, that you do not strike your foot against a stone.” Recently while reading this psalm, I recognized these familiar verses and was surprised to read verse 13, “You will tread upon the lion and cobra, the young lion and the serpent you will trample down.” Lion and snake are metaphors used for Satan in scripture (Genesis 3, I Peter 5:8, Revelation 12:9).
We usually consider the Resurrection as the moment when Christ fulfilled the prophecy of the Messiah’s victory over Satan given in Genesis 3:15 where God curses the serpent for deceiving Eve, “And I will put enmity between you and the woman, and between your seed and her seed; He shall bruise you on the head, and you shall bruise Him on the heel.” It might be said that Jesus smacked down Satan pretty well in the Temptation also. He doesn’t quote Ps. 91:13 and Genesis 3:15 in reply at the temple but rather Deuteronomy 6:16, “Jesus said to him, ‘On the other hand, it is written, “You shall not put the Lord your God to the test.”’” Jesus never defends who He is to Satan. Why not? For one thing Satan only deserves rebuke, not correction. He is not eligible for rehabilitation. Nevertheless this threat to the sanctity of the Messiah is severe. If Jesus follows any suggestion of Satan, whether as menial as turning stone to bread or as catastrophic as falling at his feet in worship, the entire plan of Salvation turns to dust, a cosmic and unredeemable perversion of truth and righteousness. 
In meeting the challenge of these temptations, the Messiah only defers to the glory of the Father, not the Son. Two roles were assigned to the Messiah by historic prophecy:  King and Servant. In the context of His humanity, it is the Servant that prevails over the devil, not the King. Here may be a lesson for us to consider. When we battle temptation without resorting to our pride we “give the devil no opportunity” and we preserve the lordship of Jesus in our life. When we affirm scripture as Jesus did to counter temptation, rather than our self, we wield the sword of the Spirit and preserve our role as servants. As servants in submission to our Master we triumph over evil and remain a force for good.
A wonderful expansion on our role as servants was recorded by the Apostle Paul in Philippians 2:1-18. It is helpful to review and think on his thoughts there.

Monday, September 25, 2017

A Wild Thing Within Me

a novel? a page, a penny for a page!
and two more if I guard well the window of my soul.
alas I succumb to the numbing days,
a million shards of sunlight
jumbled upon my eyes 'til I cannot see.

oh to stand stouthearted against eonian tides
and throw off this parsimonious existence,
'mid the grinding seconds
miniscule in persecutions,
perfections their demand.

'tis a wild thing within me, there is no harness,
a muse of beauty so shy in all its proportions
it cannot stand the noise of day,
so jealous for my attention
it will not share the moment with any detractor.

thus I know not when or how or why,
going onward a stumble, a step, or two, 
by achromatic visions until once again, unannounced,
an excimer shower of joy weeps through the clatter 
and I hold a jewel begotten, wrapped in new light.

Thursday, September 21, 2017

Touch My Eyes

‘scuse me sir, could you kindly point me in the direction of eternity?
                   yes, yes I could… and would, if I thought you could get there.
i’d be there now if i had sight.
                    no doubt. why don't you let Me just touch your eyes, see what you see?
it won't hurt will it?
                    not a pinch, if you want to see.
what do you mean?
                    all you know has been discovered in the darkness.
i know the rose is beautiful and its thorns not.         
                    how find you its beauty?
the breath of summer’s shade.
                    what of the thorns?
a brother’s betrayal.
                    what color has it?
                    lost is the soul that sees
                    what was so clearly understood,
                    revealed as unimaginable mystery.
a terrifying mystery.
                    because you do not know it.
how can i approach it?
                    I Am the way.
how can i perceive it?
                    I Am the truth.
what if it destroys me?
                    it will, but I Am the life.
well… alright then, you can touch my eyes.
                    I already have. 

Monday, August 21, 2017

What Purpose Served?

What does it mean to me, Lord?
   I can step out under the broad sky
          exposed to elemental forces
          and not be incinerated,
          asphyxiated or frozen.
In the sweep of Orion’s arm of the Milky Way,
   only on this earth,
          my earth and no other,
          I am not a cinder nor
          a freeze-dried human prune.
Intelligent design?

At night I wink into the celestial,
   impulses dash from retina to brain
          at the speed of light,
          countless stars wink back prismatic hues,
iridescent gas and dust.
In the day a shadow covers my part of the globe,
   sun and moon are one in my sky.
          Eighty moons and more orbit
          the gods of flint and fume
          save Mercury and Venus.
Why does one, only mine, fit the sun?

In orbital eccentricities earth and moon dance, sometimes further,
sometimes closer to each other, to the sun -
   a moon just smaller reveals
          a ring of fire-red H-alpha,
          its chromospheric solar flares
          cause aurora to shimmer in lower latitudes -
   a moon just larger blots out the brilliance
          to display a luminous corona,
          more than a million degrees hotter
          than the sun’s photosphere three thousand miles below -
Neither ascertainable except from the shadow of my moon.

I fit my finite world (or it fits me), breath and life,
   neurons and spirit unite in reverence,
          a uniquely sapient,
          flesh-mantled, hot-blooded,
          intelligent design.
 But an exclusive eclipse... what purpose served?
   Do skies proclaim the work of hands
          or heavens the work of fingers?
          "Let them be for signs and seasons…",
          a hand over my eyes, a holy thumbprint,
the sidereal signet of my intelligent Designer.

by Ken Paxton

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

We Have No King But Caesar

Reading the gospel of John recently I saw an enlightening juxtaposition of two verses. In chapter 12:44-50, John records Jesus’ last summary statement to the Jews (the public he addressed throughout His three year ministry) and in verse 46 He says, “I have come as Light into the world so that everyone who believes in Me will not remain in darkness.” Later after Pilate has declared to them “I find no guilt in Him (Jesus),” the Jews tell him, “We have no king but Caesar” (John 19:15).

In the context of the horror of Charlottesville this weekend and all the handwringing over what the President did and didn't say and when and how, over which side is more evil, which side is more right, which side’s leader has fewer “yeah buts” (YEAH he is a chump, he is a chameleon, she is evil… BUT he/she is helping our country be great again) every side sounds like they are saying, “We have no king but Caesar” as if Caesar is the Light. That too is darkness folks. What is appalling in addition to the tragedy in our midst is to see once again that no great country can solve the fundamental problem of man, his innate evil heart. We hate being reminded that a good country can spawn terrorists, some of whom claim a Biblical mandate for their hatred, others who falsely accuse the Bible for spawning hatred.

I hate a lot of human faults, they are disgusting to a degree that rips into my very soul with the potential to divide me from those most dear to me. And all the time Jesus is reminding me that in the Light there is no hate.

So I have to bring my handwringing to Him. I have to let go of it in His presence. I do not want to let go of it. It seems my primordial right to lament evil and demand justice. Jesus said, "Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you." This can rightly be adapted to, "Love those who hate your political opinions and pray for those loved ones who get angry, unreasonable, obnoxious, unbearable because you do not agree with them." This is living in Light, instead of darkness. Light must be quite distinguishable from darkness. The apostle Paul piles it on as well, "Love... does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the Truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things" (I Corinthians 13:6,7). Love must be quite distinguishable from hate.

Sunday, July 02, 2017

Stone & Water

Recently at church we sang “On Christ the Solid Rock I Stand” and it reminded me of the rock on which we stood Father’s Day weekend in Beaver Creek for family baptisms. The top picture below is of the creek in Big Trees State Park. For scale that log is about 4 feet across at the shoreline. The bottom picture shows the current.
At the end of his Sermon on the Mount, Jesus says, “…everyone who hears these words of mine and does them may be compared to a wise man who built his house on the rock… and the rivers came and the winds blew and slammed against that house and it did not fall“ (Matthew 7:24,25). Those who followed Christ in baptism were doing what He said to do. We stood on the rock, and we felt its solid foundation against the current of the stream.
On the creek’s bedrock we experienced stability against the current, not only for our baptisms but for our enjoyment. That stability did not keep us from feeling the strength of the flow. The rock didn’t shelter or protect us from the current but made it possible for us to stand and walk about in it. This is how Jesus calls us to follow Him all our life. In spite of difficulty in keeping balance, resistance from constant pressure, and confusion as to where exactly to step or how deep is the water, Jesus tells us to follow Him and trust Him like standing on stone because we are, on the Cornerstone (yet another cherished metaphor of our Savior).
Another symbol of the Christian life is Living Water representing the Holy Spirit. Life in the living water is subject to the current and flow of His will. It is not always quiet and calm. It does not always go the way we want. But when we thirst for righteousness, it is always satisfying.

After the baptisms my young grandkids held my hands so we could walk together around the creek. Through water deep for them they trusted me to keep them from danger, from being whisked away downstream. They were too small to determine how we would go through that water, only I could do that because I was taller and heavier. That is like what Jesus tells us, “Hold onto Me, trust Me and go where I go.” 

Saturday, May 13, 2017

What are You Becoming? (John 1:1-18)

John 1:12 “But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, even to those who believe in His name.” Part of this process of becoming God’s children is what we call discipleship. 

Years ago in his Life of Christ class at San Jose Bible College, one of Professor Dallas Meserve’s assignments was to memorize the Prologue to St. John’s gospel. These very first eighteen verses are astonishing in their literary and doctrinal quality. They comprise a widely acknowledged masterpiece in scripture worthy of memorization. They are perhaps most noted for using the Greek word logos or ‘word’ as a title for Christ Jesus, which was applied to His deity in the context of His eternal and manifest incarnate nature. Many commentaries expand on the depth of the Logos.

Through the years I’ve read and recited these verses many times. Recently I reviewed it in again in a Greek-English interlinear text and made a discovery I don’t recall from any past teaching on this gospel. Looking through five books on John collected over the years found some mention but no comprehensive development.  Following is not such a scholarly development but a highlight for further pondering.

The Greek word for to become (ginomai) is a very hard working word in the New Testament. Vine in his "Expository Dictionary of the NT" shows it was translated by 39 English words in the KJV including “arise”, “marry” and “wax”. Strong in his concordance says it was “used with great latitude” (1096). 

Ginomai is used in six places in the Prologue:

<> Creation through Christ (vss 3 and 10 “All things came into being through Him [Jesus]” )

<> John the Baptist as the witness of Christ (vs 6 “There came a man sent from God whose name was John…”, literally “…came into being a man…”)

<> Believers in Christ born as children of God (vs 12 see above)

<> Incarnate Christ, Jesus born to Mary (vs 14 “…and the Word became flesh and dwelt among us”)

<> Jesus, the pre-existent and exalted Christ (vs 15 “John [the Baptist] testified about Him… saying, …‘He who comes after me has a higher rank than I…” [Jesus was both born (of Mary) and ordained after John] a more literal translation of “has a higher rank” is “He who… has become before me”, and note the word "comes" is the common word for "to come")

<> Jesus, who brings into being real grace and real truth as superior to the ceremonial law of Moses (vs 17 “For the Law was given through Moses; grace and truth were realized through Jesus Christ” literally “…grace and truth came to be…”.

Here is another exalted view of the coming into being of our faith: Christ creates all things, sends His messenger, gives His people new birth… ever becoming our glorious Lord and Savior, “the radiance of God’s glory and exact representation of His nature” (Hebrews 1:3). Here we find a foundation for our struggle in this world to know God by faith and to live as His people. It takes more than the do’s and don’ts of religious law; it takes real grace and real truth from a real God. 

Our reading through scripture can be at times somewhat casual, a check mark on our list of things to do each day. It’s good to be reminded of the exalted nature of the Holy Word of God, the revelation of the new covenant as given by Christ Jesus and his apostles. Take some time to prayerfully meditate on these eighteen verses and receive what the Holy Spirit may ginomai in you.

…Ken Paxton
verses are from the NASB

Thursday, May 11, 2017

Reading Psalms

   The book of Psalms in the Old Testament contains a variety of ancient Hebrew poetry which includes worship songs, prayers for deliverance from trouble, confession of sin, thanksgiving and much more. Some time ago I realized there are many Psalms that are as good, if not better, than any daily devotional I might read. But not all are written for that purpose, so it is good to be choosy. My daily reading now begins with a stanza from Psalm 119 and a selection of the other Psalms. These are read purposefully and prayed through, often aloud. I've found, as so many have through the centuries, no other expressions of faith, praise, thanksgiving and supplication in pursuit of a daily connection with the Almighty to be superior. 
   When we pray through Psalms we are reminded and we affirm it is only God who helps us; only His word that revives us; only His justice that rights the wrongs of the world; only He who is worthy of our adoration and praise; only His fellowship that gladdens our heart, quiets our soul and calms our mind.
   God bids us to do one thing in life, listen to Him. Listen means hear and obey. The very first Psalm tells us that those who listen to God's word are blessed. All the metaphors of scripture as to how that becomes real in our life aim to convey that simple relationship. Jesus put it this way, "Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you shall find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden light." (Matthew 11:28-30)
  How do we follow our Savior? We learn from Him. How do we learn? We listen and obey. It is the heart of a living relationship with our loving God.

Friday, April 14, 2017

Good Friday 2017

Our view of spirituality through anyone’s book or prophet is cloudy. We have understandably developed the persuasion that what is real is what we can hold with our hands, see with our eyes, hear with our ears. Yet how many of our philosophers, even scientists, have found defects with that premise?  Probably just about all of them because while we explain one phenomena another pops up to take its place, rendering our previous explanation questionable at best. So our quest for reality is never ending. It becomes disheartening and is often abandoned out of sheer weariness of soul. 

What does the apostle John writing in the first century say to this? “That which we handled and saw, what was from the beginning, what we have heard, what we have seen with our eyes, what we have looked at and touched with our hands, concerning the Word of Life—  and the life was manifested, and we have seen and testify and proclaim to you the eternal life, which was with the Father and was manifested to us— what we have seen and heard we proclaim to you also, so that you too may have fellowship with us; and indeed our fellowship is with the Father, and with His Son Jesus Christ… This is the message we have heard from Him and announce to you, that God is Light, and in Him there is no darkness at all" (I John 1:1-3,5).

Our view of spirituality through anyone’s book or prophet is cloudy, until we see the Light. 


After believing in Christ for over twenty years, I found myself depressed and the darkness was particularly acute on Communion Sundays. This coincidence formed a vision of myself kneeling at the foot of the Cross and looking up to see a single drop of blood falling toward me, always falling. For reasons that were a mystery to me this was not comforting as one familiar with the gospel would suppose. After about a year I wrote down the vision and my impressions to go with it in prose. I kept working on it for quite awhile without significant relief. One day I converted it to a rough poetic style and the cloud of despair lifted and has not returned. The link below is that outcome.

Fade Not Again

Friday, December 09, 2016

Authenticity of the New Testament

December 2016   

Notes on the Authenticity of the New Testament… A First Century Problem

Found this on the grocery store rack as I was checking out. Based on how full the rack was it didn't look like it was a hot item. I thought, "at least believers should look into this". So I did. 

On page 9 the first sentence of chapter one reads, "Jesus was born in Lower Galilee..."  quite a departure from the accounts of His birth in the gospels of Matthew and Luke, Bethlehem is nowhere near lower Galilee.  Given it is coming out close to Christmas it is hard to understand the lack of respect to traditional Christian beliefs this represents. Modern skeptics will put anything out there in any kind of packaging with any kind of spin, take care how you receive it. The author of this publication is not a theologian. He lists no academic Biblical studies in the biography on his website, 

This is a slick publication as are all NG offerings with beautiful photos of Christian art, locations and of course, great maps... using a text that offers no attempt to validate its own authenticity to restate human history. maybe not too surprising for a filmmaker and author of historical fiction. Nevertheless the masquerade as real historic story telling is galling. I guess this goes on the religious humanism shelf next to the comics. Still it inspired the following thoughts...

We are told that the Virgin Birth and the Resurrection are early Christian fiction (isn’t it at least a little curious that so many folks know what those terms refer to). Apparently God presented the gospel of salvation by means unacceptable to modern theologians and scientists. According to them the difficulties of the written record are significant to the point that its testimony is not true.

II Peter 3:14-18 “Therefore, beloved, since you look for these things, be diligent to be found by Him in peace, spotless and blameless, and regard the patience of our Lord as salvation; just as also our beloved brother Paul, according to the wisdom given him, wrote to you, as also in all his letters, speaking in them of these things, in which are some things hard to understand, which the untaught and unstable distort, as they do also the rest of the Scriptures, to their own destruction. You therefore, beloved, knowing this beforehand, be on your guard so that you are not carried away by the error of unprincipled men and fall from your own steadfastness, but grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To Him be the glory, both now and to the day of eternity. Amen.”

Peter’s reference to distortion of scriptures is not an agreement with this accusation of Christian fiction, but warns against the twisted teaching of authentic scriptures by those who do not believe in the truth.

This is not a problem first suggested by eighteenth century Enlightenment on the heels of Renaissance challenges to God’s supremacy…

This is not a problem defined by the birth of nineteenth century liberal theology and the emergence of the critical method…

This is not a problem developed in the twentieth century quest for the historical Jesus and philosophical skepticism resulting in the demise of humanistic hope…   (the irony here is the first believes in solving such difficulties by scientific analysis and the latter rejects there is sufficient objectivity in such analysis to reveal real truth, ultimately leading to post-modern absurdity and the twenty-first century chaos of meaning.)

The problem of “things hard to understand” and distortion of the gospel into a body of false teaching is a first century problem…

So what? So the solutions crafted in these later centuries are not the ones to look to no matter their claim of objectivity. What God through Christ gave the world was the oral testimony of eyewitnesses to the Savior with the grace and faith to believe and thus to know. It is likely that the first written accounts from the life of Jesus were not distributed widely until thirty to forty years after His resurrection. Clearly it was not God’s intent to present to the first believers a written record of the New Covenant. 

The recorded gospel became necessary as the Apostles began to die. Their initial understanding was that Jesus could return at any moment to take up His kingdom on earth. This belief is expressed consistently throughout the writings of the apostles Matthew, John, Paul and Peter and their disciples including Luke and Mark.

Peter writes in his second letter to the young churches, perhaps after twenty years of this oral testimony (quoted above), “…grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ”. In God’s design knowledge comes with grace, the same grace that provides the real Savior, the real witness, and the real faith to accept His truth. God’s design of revelation did not provide this knowledge through written testimony reviewed by a board of human experts on science and analytical criticism. A simple reading of the gospels finds the rabbinical experts in Jewish law and religion, the scholars in first century Judea most like modern analysts, opposed this knowledge by grace to Jesus' face, and continued to oppose it when the Apostles set out to tell the world their eyewitness testimony in person, not in writing.

Therefore it should be no surprise that those who call themselves experts today continue to oppose the Gospel born of miraculous revelation according to God’s purpose. The danger for them is they do not realize (or refuse to admit?) that they insist God bow to their intellectual challenge. They cast down the gauntlet and demand God prove Himself. Could you believe in a God who would submit to them? 

Jesus of Nazareth said 2000 years ago, “Truly I say to you, he who hears My word and believes Him who sent Me has eternal life, and does not come into judgment, but has passed out of death into life.” (John 5:24) 

Paul wrote to the Romans, “So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ.” (Romans 10:17) 

These are the words of Christ and His disciples which God preserved through centuries of persecution and distortion. They are His message to humanity. He invites us to hear them and believe. 

And God invites us to examine their words and determine if they are authentic to His truth, but not to ours. He does not answer to us. We find an example of this in Acts 17:10-12, "The brethren immediately sent Paul and Silas away by night to Berea, and when they arrived, they went into the synagogue of the Jews. Now these were more noble-minded than those in Thessalonica, for they received the word with great eagerness, examining the Scriptures daily to see whether these things were so. Therefore many of them believed..." The standard for the authenticity of their witness is scripture. The Berean experts in the Jewish scriptures knew this. The word for scripture occurs fifty two times in the New Testament; in the first century these were the Jewish scriptures.

From ancient Jewish wisdom: “Do not be hasty in word or impulsive in thought to bring up a matter in the presence of God. For God is in heaven and you are on the earth; therefore let your words be few.” (Ecclesiastes 5:2)

Be careful whose words you listen to.

Sunday, December 04, 2016

Doc Love's Guardian Angel

Doc Love’s guardian angel wears
A lampshade on his nose
Cuz every moment Doc Love groans
His guardian angel glows

Doc Love called him Pauley once
That’s very quaint I thought
To name your guardian angel but
Angels can’t be bought

Given names they bear for sure
Given songs employ
To praise their Maker and their King
And bring their charges joy

Pauley’s quite a with-it flap
(wears Ray-Bans you can tell)
His bluesy voice sounds like it came
From the bottom of a well

So if old Doc should come your way
And strum his fine guitar
And like an angel sing on high
With light from yonder star

Know that Pauley’s took his cue
For 8 ball and 2 bits
To run the side of stars & stripes
And chalk up another hit

~ Ken Paxton... December '16

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Cyra, Girl of My Dreams

Ken Paxton
June 2004

“Blast it Bart, if all you’re gonna do is yap at every magpie that flaps by, you can just get out and walk home!”
“Wasn’t very nice,” I mutter to myself not daring to glance up at the mutt. He’s sitting there all flappy tongued waiting for me to turn his way so I’ll see his, “What’d I ever do to deserve that?” look. Still a guy’s gotta yell at something when he’s scraped away most of the skin from three of his knuckles… probably bleed to death… stupid dog.
I jamb another log under the rear tire, get in and rev her up but she’s not budging for nobody and now the engine’s flooded. Bart stretches out in the back, soaking up the afternoon sun and offers an exaggerated sigh. Bart’s a Rafeiro, or Portuguese Mastiff… looks a bit like a smaller Saint Bernard and still takes up half the truck bed.
My ’48 Jimmy custom cab pickup’s been feeling poorly ever since we ran over that hay bale ten miles back. Fell off a truck right in front of us, bounced off the asphalt barely high enough to bury itself in the grill. Thing just exploded when we hit it. Ol’ Bart thought he’d died and was howling to beat the band until we pulled off the road. Not his fault I decided to take the short cut over the ridge. Now we’re stuck here on this muddy manzanita hillside, a chilly breeze cooling off the shady spaces under the pines and a bright sun warming the cab.
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I’m not one to sit around. “This truck’s not going anywhere for awhile Bart, you stay…,” one sleepy eyelid rises slightly to show me he’s listening, “keep an eye on things. I think there’s a small town ‘bout a half mile down the highway at the bottom of this ravine.”
Strolling into the nearby town, I notice a couple sitting at a sidewalk cafe and take a seat at a nearby table. The guy’s wearing a peacoat with the collar up against his long curly dark hair. Likes to use his hands when he talks. The girl is comfortably pretty, not gorgeous, wearing a long beige wool coat. Her eyes are hidden by black-framed librarian glasses. Her shiny brunette hair falls almost to her shoulders and she’s kinda thin. Her skinny ankles stick out calf-length pants and poke into her plain black flats.
They’re having an earnest “discussion” and I’m unable to keep from eavesdropping.  The guy is really putting her down for everything. Seems to enjoy it too, like it’s some sort of game. She’s not a good opponent and before long silently stares at the burgundy-brown irises swaying in an adjacent  flower bed.
On the ground by my muddy boots, I notice a peculiar scrap of paper, or picture. Picking it up it looks to be cut from a magazine and is a bit strange. Set in a square white border is a picture of a gorilla and one of those large white egret type birds with long curved feathers. It has an artsy look to it as the gorilla appears more like King Kong than one of those National Geographic silverbacks I used to see in the dentist’s waiting room… I mean in the magazine. He stands on two legs sideways to the viewer and the egret, which is almost as tall, is a little more toward the viewer with its long curved white feathers crossing the dark looming hulk. Real artsy.
In a moment of inspiration, I hand the picture to the couple behind me. They really hadn’t noticed me before and both are startled. I point to the gorilla and tell the guy, “that’s you.”
After that sinks in, he cracks, with a fine British accent (I dare say), “Oh, and I suppose the bird is Lovey here.”
I reply to the girl, “Very nice to meet you, Lovey. I reckon you can decide for yourself if that's you or not.”
Assuming my part of the conversation is over, and needing to get back where I belong at some point, I get up, cross the street and make my way along the village-square park.  Near to the other side I’m startled to find “Lovey” walking toward me, minus glasses and wearing a big tan beret. I see her eyes are really a kind of hazel that seem to reflect the green of the surrounding park full of large elms. I nod and smile barely, and find an unexpected attraction to this delicate, elfin creature.
She invites me for a cup of coffee…  at a different cafe of course. Seems the village is full of cafes, boutiques and bistros. I wonder if any one works for a living. My hands are stuffed in my coat pockets so I gesture clumsily with an elbow toward an obvious pastry shop that occupies an entire corner of the square and off we go. As we enter and go up to the counter, she slips her arm in mine and I’m thinking, “My, my, what do we have here?”  A heretofore unknown, humbler part of me is completely flattered amid the wistful stirrings of newfound affections… or something like that.
She orders a bottled water and I get a mocha-tres grand-no-whip-du-plus-du cocoa (or is it superbe-sans-whip-mocha-?) and regular (fat?) milk… will be just fine thank you, with a double extra shot of that smoky black gold and another of the dark cocoa. This is a man's mocha: twice the sugar, half the cream and caffeine up the wazoo. We sit down at a table and start talking about coffee. She’s quite taken with it which surprises me a little since she ordered the water which is not yet opened. Crunching some chocolate covered coffee beans in a bowl set on the table like peanuts at the bar (which explains the rather over-animated character of the clientele), she pulls out a jar of her favorite coffee and offers me some. All I can say is, “Wow, Folger’s Crystals.”
I’m a bit stunned, but I take a pinch and put it between my cheek an’ gum (having some experience with such things) and she says “No, you dummy, you don’t just let it sit there, you chew it.”
Right then an overly middle-aged guy calls from across the cafe, “Cyra!” and waves at my new friend. He comes by and asks if we want to read a new short story he’s written. Wearing a v-neck sweater and slacks, he looks like he’s ready for eighteen holes or a brandy at the club. Cyra (sounds like serious) smiles and nods excitedly. So her gentlemen friend mumbles something about making a copy and hustles off to a photocopier in the corner.
Turns out it’s a very literary joint, book shelves all over, and between them various bookworms and other sullen species are reading or tapping away at their laptops, sipping espressos. I let my mocha cool some and then ram it down. In a few seconds my heart does a little jitterbug and I’m ready to take on most anything.
For want of real entertainment we watch the progress at the copier and shortly see the machine is not working (see, this is a real copy machine). All of a sudden about six guys come out all dressed like Mr. Brandy, some with aprons on so I’m guessing they must own the place and pretend to work here. They start fussing all over the copier:  cabinet doors fly open, one produces a toner cartridge and holds it up for the rest to see like he’s carefully removed the patient’s heart, and another one produces a pile of crumpled paper extracted from section 'A' after rotating knob 'C' counter clockwise while holding up lever 'D' and standing on one leg. He hands the papers to Cyra’s friend and says, “Here’s your story, Richard.”
Richard mumbles to Cyra as he dumps his story into the shredder, “We’ll get a copy for you momentarily,” as though the launch of the next space shuttle was held up waiting for a good copy, “t-minus 10, 9, 8… Houston, we have a problem… Capcom, when will we get a clean copy of that story sent up to Cyra? Wait one, Flight, checking now.  FIDO, we need a solution on that copier trajectory…”
I think to myself, as a way to kill time the whole situation seems to be improving. Certainly the entertainment factor has risen a notch. Meanwhile Cyra moves her chair around the table next to mine. She naturally slides into my arm across her shoulders and we take a moment to look warmly into each other’s eyes, pretty enchanting really.  Now our faces get a little closer and next thing you know it appears we’re on a fast track to the kiss of a life time. Vague sentiments try to inform me about a previous commitment I might have, and quickly disappear. But before the magic moment arrives, a loud party bursts into the cafe and everyone, unfortunately including Cyra, turns to see who it is. She exclaims, “Look! It’s Hemingway’s daughter!” so of course we’ve got to see this.
Now, I swear I saw a picture of Hemingway’s daughter some place. Seems all the famous guys’ daughters take on a fame of their own: Picasso, Stalin, Hemingway and virtually every President since FDR. A picture of her comes to mind: a bookish progeny with, as I recall, wavy dark hair. Well, this Hemingway’s daughter had dull red hair, hanging straight down, around a puggy face and entered the café with a young kid, apparently Hemingway’s grandson, and a real imitation cowboy, with a beer gut pinned to his Wrangler’s by a belt buckle the size of a 10 lb. angus steak. Wearing a Stetson, a ‘cowboy’ shirt, and, to complete the ensemble, a pair of handsome SKs… uhmm, boots minus spurs that is. With what meager authority I could manage I observe “She doesn’t look like Hemingway’s daughter” and Cyra coolly rebuts, “Hemingway managed to have more than one.”
While these blustery folks are quickly joined by a noisy crowd of Hemingway’s this and that, I’m trying to figure out how to get back to doing what we were about to do, a prime interest of mine, being truly smitten by one of the oddest females I could ever imagine. I don’t know, she just has this cute little turned up nose, and her rosy lips sweep up at the corners naturally suggesting a satisfied kind of smile. The absence of her glasses is a mighty improvement. So I’m trying to get her romantic attention once again, and up strides her pal Richard with a real sophisticated woman on his arm, dressed up in heels and a long blue dress, covered by a fur coat that partially hides a string of pearls.  
Richard mumbles an introduction and this lady extends a hand to Cyra affirming, “It’s a pleasure to meet you.” Then I realize Cyra has stood up to be polite so, recalling some fragment of etiquette that never quite lodged itself in my Rules of the Road, I scramble to my feet and prepare to say, ‘Pleeztameechoo’ and come upon a troubling  revelation. My new sweetheart is at least six inches taller than I am. What’s worse, Richard and his lady friend are even taller. The conversation simply takes off without me and I’m feeling like the kid who doesn’t get chosen to be on anybody’s team because… well he’s just inferior, that’s why, no point in dressing it up. 
Then Hemingway’s loud mouthed daughter calls attention to herself once again and everyone seems to be heading out the back door of the café into a small courtyard, me and Cyra included, not that I could explain that to you, I really wanted to get back to… reading that short story if you know what I mean. So there we all are and the imitation cowboy is putting some huge mushrooms sliced in two with a chunk of goat cheese stuck in them on the grill and everyone’s looking forward to a treat. 
But Richard and lady friend are about to leave, and apparently Cyra and I are invited to come along to some out of the way place up in the mountains called the “S & Awl” for dinner. Then I remember her bottle of water sitting on the table and, deciding it’s time to show my real genteel qualities, I rush back inside to fetch it for her, she never having opened it; you can’t waste something like that. I manage to worm my way back through the crowd and into the café, find the water bottle which now is only about a third full which completely puzzles me to no end, and go flying back out to catch up with my lovey, Cyra, and our new friends.
I don’t see her anywhere! I’m running up and down the sidewalk trying to find her and then notice a bus pull away with the destination set to “Essen Hall”, and I have the desperate, sinking feeling that’s the end of a beautiful romance. 
I’m beside myself and more than a little confused by the whole thing. Wandering back the way I came, someone shoves a grilled mushroom in my hand. I’m not real hungry but don’t have the presence of mind to throw it away. Finally I cross the park in the square and head back to where I entered the village by the first café. Crossing my path is none other than Magilla Gorilla with a British accent himself. I hand him the mostly empty bottle of water and before he can thank me, that old mushroom leaps out of my hand and squashes itself into His Rudeness’ curly locks. While he scrapes at the well embedded cheese I continue on to find my truck.
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The rumble of a diesel engine roaring up the road startles me out of a deep and mystifying slumber. ‘Peers I’ve drifted off to sleep waiting for the carburetor to dry out and had a most enjoyable dream… to a point. Ol’ Bart wakes up at the same time in the back of the truck and lets the bus have a piece of his mind, or whatever he’s got working up there between his floppy ears.
Bus?!!  I jam down the starter pedal and mash the accelerator to the floor, hoping my flooded engine can finally work itself into running order, and sure enough she fires up rough and ready.  I leap out and throw Old Bart and some logs under the tires for traction (just kidding about Bart) and gun her royal, mud flying everywhere.  Bart starts barking his approval and encouragement, and we’re sliding sideways down the hillside until finally the tires bite into something more solid.  Bouncing back onto the highway we’re in pursuit of a bus, going I-know-not-where, and carrying most-definitely-not, Cyra, my most recent fickle heart fling. But of course I gotta go check this out. 
It doesn’t take long to catch the bus, laboring in low gear to make the grade.  Above the back window in its destination marquee is the name “Essen Hall”, and I am getting a touch prickly-haired along the neck.
The bus pulls over into the slow lane and I speed up to pass.  Bart barks his fool head off at the bus and I’m wanting to smack him one.
I slow down in front of the bus and the driver has no choice but to stop. Running up to the door prompts the driver to open it. I bolt up the stairs and immediately call out, "Cyra," figuring the best defense is a good offense, and no one would suspect I'm chasing my dreams if I go about in an ardent manner. Who’s going to know?  They’ll assume I'm as known to her as I make myself out to be. And what if she is on the bus?  Better to act like she ought to know me than to sneak up on every pretty young thing and suggest maybe we’ve met before. But the only folks on the bus are a half dozen little old ladies lookin’ like they’re off to bingo night and, in the back, a guy in a pea coat reading a book.
“Missing your girl there, Sonny?” presumes the bus driver.
My rush of boldness fades so quickly I stammer, “I don’t know,” such is my confidence in dreams.
“Well, a young lady deboarded back in the last town, Bitterbend. Looked a bit lonesome, too.  Now if you would kindly move that wreck of yours ‘n that sorry excuse for a canine, we need to be getting’ on.”
I plod down the steps and bang back into my truck, Ol’ Bart smilin’ that big stupid grin of his as if he knows somethin’ I don’t and he’s not about to tell, although he's dying to do just that. We fly up the road, make a u-turn and head for I know-not-what sort of adventure. 
Bitterbend is known to me having once there engaged in an apple barrage of old man Foster’s house from the other side of their modest library with my cousins. They lived outside of town on their parents’ 1400 acres, more than 600 sportin’ the tallest, goldest wheat I’ve ever seen. There were a lot of apples in the gnarled old tree next to the library, which is why we found ourselves belly-down behind some gooseberry bushes growing along Cottonwood Creek, as the town constable rolled by in his super-sized sedan trolling for waifs with time on their hands to wax his ride.
Now, it was kind of nice to be able to proceed through the town like an ordinary citizen with nothing to fear from the local law enforcement, that is if I can stop Bart from yelping at everything he sees. As it is, I figure I better lay down the law. Pulling over to the curb, I get out and, before I can say anything, Bart flops down for a nap, silent as a mouse, ‘cept for that special sigh only a dog can make when he wants you to believe he could not be more exhausted.  The truck grill is hairy with hay stubble and the fenders covered with mud. “Car wash, Bart!” He leaps up crazy with excitement at the mention of his favorite game. “Just kidding you mutt. You’ll have to wait until we get home.” His tail wags slows and his eyes betray astonishment at my cruel tease.
The palatable aroma of a straight forward dark roasted pot o'jo' wafts across my nostrils and I am ready to hunt it down when my gaze freezes on an art print gallery only a couple stores down the block. In a window by the entrance is an image I’m sure I’ve seen before. A tall curving white form against a dark massive shape in the background.  The picture I found on the ground! I run to check it out and see I am perhaps a bit too trusting in somnolent (the only vocab word I recall from English 101) meanderings. Actually the curving white form is a splashing rivulet of snowmelt bounding down a large jumble of black basalt with leaping salmon here and there. Sure gave my heart a twitch though. 
A bit dazed, I’m drawn to a neighboring coffee shop to order up a giant Machiavellian Power Mocha - 6 shots! with bitter dark chocolate &  foamed half and half. I’m in line behind three or four folks all studying newspaper headlines on a nearby wooden rack. A pretty sounding voice ahead of me orders a bottled water, and that fear-of-further-disappointment grips my chest again. I absolutely do not believe a dream is going to turn out to be real, but then why am I here in this little one dog town anyway, if not to chase down a most enchanting earth maiden? 
Abandoning my bold strategy for exploring the bus, I grab a newspaper and bury my face in it like I’m some private eye on the prowl. The water is delivered and my quarry, wearing a long beige wool coat and… a beret! is about to turn around when a noisy bunch enters the front of the store. Deliberating why I should be concerned about this young lady recognizing me as she could not possibly know me from a dream, I turn to see what all the racket is about, expecting at any moment to hear someone exclaim we are being entertained by Hemingway’s daughter.
Outside, a charter bus expels about a hundred European tourists, happy souls grateful for the chance to get a laté and a fistful of biscotti. Suddenly the push from this crowd causes our line to swerve over a bit just when the pretty young voice with the bottled water comes by. In seconds I am eyeball to eyeball with a thin, hazel-eyed, dark haired wonder far more beautiful than the elusive apparition my slumbering imagination conjured up. Where the gumption comes from to speak in a moment like that I can’t tell you… “Cyra?” I ask most sincerely before she’s able to move on.
As our eyes lock together in an "I know you from somewhere, don't I?" gaze, a much taller guy swoops out of nowhere and proclaims, "C'mon we're going to be late!"
The object of my affections, breaks away and puts her arm through his, says in a sparkling voice "Oh, there you are Richard," and off they go, leaving me frozen in complete disbelief and shock.
Finally, I rouse myself and instinctively yell, "Hey!!", which loses all meaning in such a crowded and noisy situation. Three startled folks all ask, "Are you ok ?" and I give them a blank stare as if I’m caught in a slow motion replay, showing the fumble over and over again on the big screen at the local stadium.
Ricocheting through the crowd like the pinball wizard I’m not, I try to exit by the same side door as my quarry, but instead I bounce off a couple of folks who are coming in, and, wielding their superior momentum over my streamlined physique, send me flying toward the front door.
I take a look in Bart's direction and it seems he's found a friend. There, leaning right on the side of my dear ol' truck, scratching the chin of my dear ol' Bart, is none other than the girl of my dreams!
Approximately ten or twelve billion nerve endings all fire off at once in my already over-taxed brain. It's all I can think to do to keep my mouth shut so I don't start drooling, just like a certain four-legged companion of mine. I’m paralyzed, no clue what to do next. I know I need to move my feet and I am doing everything I know how to accomplish exactly that, but nothing is working right and it just scares me that much more. If she sees me in this state, she’ll have every reason to be convinced of my complete ineptitude, and not even Bart himself will be able to dissuade her opinion. 
"Cyra!" I yell out and, as I pull around to her side of the truck, "he's not as friendly as he looks, can be a real threat to one's health."
Stupid mutt is as smitten as I am. He turns his head a bit and looks deep into her sunlit eyes as if to say, "You don't really believe I could hurt a flea do you? Can you scratch a little over to the right? Oh, yeahhhhhhhhhhh…"
She's quick to point out, "Cyra seems a strange name for a killer brute sporting his type of equipment."
"No I meant…"  but I can’t finish. My words are drowned out by the toney drone of a restored 1955 MG with bird's eye maple dash board all polished real pretty like. As it pulls to a stop, irony sets in hard as I remember a 1/24th scale version of the very same vehicle, complete with the special rubber-gum tires of a hot pre-adolescent slot car... assembled the stamped-steel chassis, walnut-sized motor, crown-geared axle with plastic bushings and polypropylene decal-covered body myself… she's gone! Like a daydream burst in math class, bouncing off in a breezy forest-green classic, tossing her beret into the back, as they pick up speed and turn right at the sign, ‘HWY 15’. Disgusted as one with a right to be, I determine to head home and stop by the car wash to spray off the truck… and the dog.
'Course the car wash is only a ways up Highway 15. Can’t see how it would hurt if we pretend one last time there’s a meeting of destiny in the very near future. Bart and I round a long curve where the highway parallels a bend in the river called the Devil’s Elbow, and there they are, broken down on the side of the road. We pull up, Bart leaning over the side of the truck bed as if to ask, “Have you seen my chew bone?”
“What’s the trouble?” I ask.
Richard replies, “Out of gas.”
“Dang… I can go back into town and get some for you.”
“There’s no time, Lovey here needs to get to the airport. Would you be willing to give her a ride?”
I’m already holding open the door before he says “to” and an angel brushes past me to climb aboard. Apparently heaven is getting impatient. Bart stares through the rear window with his tongue hanging out the side of his mouth and I pray I’m not doing the same. By the time she settles in, the truck is gliding along the highway, acting like it has taken on new airs. In fact it has for the cab is filled with the most majestic combination of perfume and presence I’ve ever encountered.
After all this, at last, I get to talk to the real girl of my dreams… and I can’t think of a single thing to say. She breaks the silence, "How'd you come up with a name like Cyra for such a beast?" She turns to me inquisitively and I practically fall into those sweet enchanting eyes.
Managing somehow to refocus on the road ahead I reply unconvincingly, “Actually I was referring to yourself.” She’s quiet. After a mile or two she recalls in a wistful soft tone, "Cyra was my mother's name," as she stares off into the distance out the side window…  tie game, two down, bases loaded, swing and a miss strike three.
All my male insight concludes there’s a well of mystery here waiting to be explored… and completely unavailable for that purpose. I’m about to ask for her hand in marriage, no, I mean her name… and she points out, “There’s the exit,” in a way that indicates all conversations, be they real or imagined, have come to an end.
The airport seems merely an exhausted extension of the highway. You travel for miles, take an off ramp, pull up to a curb, the door opens and a muffled “thanks” barely reaches your ear before the truck door slams shut. And with each step she fades away into the darkened glass of the terminal building like a rainbow trout that snaps the line inches from your net. Bart watches her for a moment and then turns to me with an expectant look like, “Well aren’t you gonna get it back?” Life boils down to a simple formula for Bart: either something is arriving for him to eat or play with, or it needs to be chased down for him to eat or play with. There’s no such thing as “I’ll save that for later,” or “that’s the one that got away.”

His thoughtful countenance is interrupted when my foot slips off the clutch and the truck lurches forward a few feet, sputters and dies, tossing the dog around like a sack of potatoes. I start ‘er up, shove ‘er into second gear and head back to the highway, “Time to find that car wash, Bart.”